UYAB MATTERS

Yes, I miss him…a lot…

At sa pagka-miss na ito, sana naman ay huwag naman maging habang-buhay.

I treasured him so much. I don’t want to loose him. But I am preparing myself that he will bid me good bye, not now but soon.

T_T

I can sense that he has a problem and probably it will become OUR problem…

Haay…I am becoming pessimistic, just the same way how he is negatively thinking of our relationship.

And why do I assume these things?

Well, there are indirect acts of unlikeness and burning out – two-way actions which are definitely unwanted…

T_T

I don’t want to regret everything. I don’t want to make remorse of the time, effort and sacrifices that we endured only to prolong this relationship.

I love him so much and I am still willing to continue doing anything just to bring back the algama.

God, please help me…

Uyab, I am very sorry of my rudeness.

ala ERRATUM

ang tagal ko na rin nag-post dito sa blogspot...ang daming dapat sabihin...ang daming dapat ikwento...hindi lamang tungkol sa sarili ko, sa amin ni mark o sa mga kaibigan ko...ang daming nangyari--sa pamilya ko, sa mga taong nasa paligid ko, sa lahat ng tao...

nais kong magpaumanhin sa mga taong nasaktan ko...lalung-lalo na kay mark dahil sa negatibong imahe niya sa blog ko..mahigit kasi sa kalahati ng mga artikulo ay nagmumukha lagi syang masama..kaya ngayon,nais kong ipakita ang positibong imahe ni mark na aking b.f.->best-friend at boy-friend..=>

bilib ako sa kanya..dahil sa kabila ng mga pag-aaway namin, andiyan pa rin siya sa aking tabi..hindi sumusuko sa kakitiran ng utak ko, sa pagseselos at pagiging isip-bata ko..ilang beses ko na rin siguro siyang napaiyak at ilang beses ko na rin siyang nasaktan..subalit sa lahat ng mga iyon,andiyan pa rin siya at alam kong nagmamahal pa rin sa akin..

hehe,biglang nag-online si mark..nawala tuloy ang senti moment

nwei,sinulat ko ito hindi upang tuparin lang ang pangako sa isang tao na lilinisin ko na ang imahe ni mark sa blog.kundi sinulat ko ito sa pagnanais na ipaalam sa lahat ng tao na napakaswerte ko sa pagkakaroon ng mark sa buhay ko..hehehe...sounds corny but it's true..

ayihi!=)

Physically Attracted

alas tres ng madaling araw..

kaarawan ngayon ni nanay..

pero sa mga oras na ito, heto ako at nag-iisa na naman sa kawalan..

sa isang kawalan na puno ng pag-aagam-agam..

sa isang kawalan na puno ng kalungkutan..

ang pangit ng blog na ito..

puro hinagpis ko na lang para sa kanya..

subalit ganoon talaga siguro kapag nais mong makapaglabas ng sama ng loob..

hindi ko naman kagustuhang mainis at medyo magalit..

subalit ganyan talaga..

kailangan masaktan nang paminsan-minsan..

"physically attracted"..

nagamit ko na ang mga salitang ito kay nico..

halos tatlong buwan na ang nakaraan..

subalit pagbabalat-kayo lamang ito..

hindi bukal sa aking kalooban..

isang requirement lamang sa kalilayan..

ang magkaroon ng ika nga 'crush' na mem sa kalilayan..

subalit kanina, may binanggit siya

"physically attracted" siya hindi lamang sa isa..

kundi mahigit pa sa dalawang babae..

sa una,nakakatuwa..

honest siya..

subalit sa bawat pagbitiw niya ng mga salita..

inis,lungkot at galit ang kapalit..

bakit kasi lagi niya akong nasasaktan?

"physicallay attracted"

kanino?!

....

haay...

saan ako nagkulang?

bakit ako nagkulang?

at kailan ako nagkulang?

...

haay...

sino ang may problema sa ating dalawa?

As requested by Klein

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:

1. Jobel

2. Jobs

3. Joe-belle

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:

1. Jabel

2. Jebs

3. Jomad

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS* (hmm..things ba to?) YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. my back

2. my eyes

3. my coke sakto figure =>

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. my legs

2. my skin

3. my eyebrows

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:

1. Lucbanin

2. Tayabasin

3. Lucenahin

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

1. Ghost places

2. Surgical operations

3. Nightmares

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:

1. face powder

2. pop-up tissues (coz it's cheaper than facial tissues)

3. cellphone

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:

1. denim pants

2. fitted pink top

3. undies =>

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:

1. Spongecola

2. Giniling Festival

3. Mark Bautista =>

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:

1. Crazy for You

2. Next in Line

3. I'll be

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:

1. love

2. time

3. trust

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):

1. I love Mark so much

2. I love potato chips

3. I love to walk and perspire

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:

1. intelligence or just being smart

2. conversationalist

3. simple and presentable

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. friendster stalking

2. tumambay

3. net surfing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:

1. finish my acad requirements

2. socialize with my friends

3. watch tv

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:

1. lawyer

2. bureaucrat

3. educator

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:

1. anywhere in Europe

2. Singapore

3. anywhere in South

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:

1. Otaru

2. Charity

3. Happy

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

1. Make my parents happy and let them feel that i'm very greatful of having them

2. Be the best wife and the best mother

3. Serve the people

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:

1. I am Imeldific

2. I admire guys

3. I have female genitals (hehehe)

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:

1. I admire sexy, cute and pretty girls

2. I glance on a walking girl's behind

3. I can commute alone

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:

1. Sam Milby

2. JTT (t'was before)

3. Jericho Rosales

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:

1. Mark

2. Kamille

3. Kat

LOVE actually happens

got this write-up when i was blog-hopping...

oh my,sobrang ganda ng story..parang naka-relate ata ako.o "F" lang ako...

A valentines' story

A few years back...I was so excited to meet that special someone who will make my life complete. I thought I had it all na kasi except for that someone who will make me forget about my fears and heartaches. Many times...I thought nakilala ko na siya...but many times I realized that hindi pala siya. I don't know kung hindi talaga siya para sa akin or ako lang yung may problema...dahil i just can't get contented with that I have. Masaya lang kasi sa una...then after that, sunod sunod na ang away, kung wala namang away, wala namang thrill. And I end up getting tired of hoping that tomorrow will make up for today...Finally, I decided that maybe its better to try my luck elsewhere, maybe, someone else's love will make me feel complete. Every woman wants a man who will make her feel special...and treat her like she's everything in his life... He's always busy...he doesn't have time for me. He promised to take me out for dinner and movie and then biglang tatawag "B, sorry I can't take you out today, my boss asked me to work tonight, may hinahabol kasing deadline. Nakakahiya naman pag hindi ko pagbibigyan. Hayaan mo I'll make it up to you next time." And it happens all the time. I often end up spending the day crying in my room. "Bakit gan'un, he doesn't care about me...I was looking forward to see him today. Hindi ba niya ako namimiss?" Kaya heto ako...I've made up my mind na...I'll give him what he wants...he probably won't miss me anyway. I'm always last sa lahat ng priorities niya. Im not important to him at all. If he can't treat me right, somebody else will! Mahimbing ang tulog niya...when he came home. D man lng niya ako napansin. He gave me a kiss sa cheek and ginulo ang buhok ko...after that dumeretso nasa kuarto at natulog. I won't wake him up anymore...susulat na lng ako...at parang isang panaginip...pagising niya wala na ako. Dear Jake, While you're reading this letter, wala na ako...you probably won't see me again. I won't tell you the details anymore coz alam mo na yun. but I guess you deserve to know why...Lately, I realized that this is not the kind of life that I want for myself..you know that I've been lonely most of my life and I want to share my life with someone who won't take me for granted, who will make me happy every second of my life. Forgive me but I guess, hanggang dito na lng tayo. I just want you to know that I love you and I want you to be happy too.Maan With tears in my eyes, I left the letter beside him para makita niya paggising niya. And then I looked at him. Ang guapo guapo niya...napangiti ako...naaalala ko nung una ko siyang makilala. I met this guy sa school nung college. Ang daming nagkakagusto sa kanya but I don't know what he saw in me at ako ang niligawan niya kahit inaaway ko siya. I was scared of him before, para kasing playboy ang mukha...I was broken hearted at that time and getting hurt again was the last thing I wanted. But then he was persistent and he was really nice to me. At first, our relationship was extraordinary. wala akong masabi. Nobody has ever treated me like that...kaya lang as time went by...we both got busy and despite the fact that we both lived under one roof, we seldom spent time with each other. He buys me anything I want but I don't really need anything...I just need him. But i guess, he changed a lot since the first time we were together, siguro he fell out of love and he just can't tell me...Ba't kasi kailangan pang magbago ang lahat....kaya heto na naman ako, muling mag iisa.I didn't realize, I was staring at him for 3 hours.Gumalaw siya and something fell off his hand---ballpen?! and then I saw a piece of paper sa tabi niya.. I was curious kaya binasa ko and it goes like this...Dear Maan, For all the times that I have disappointed you, I'm really sorry. I know I've been out of your sight often and that I always make you feel bad. Im really sorry. I want you to know that even though wala ako sa tabi mo...I'm always thinking about you. You are the reason why I work hard. I want to give you everything in life because you deserve everything and I want you to be happy. Kaya forgive me kung hindi tayo natuloy last week. I had to work double time para matuloy tayo ngayon. I know that you've always wanted to go south sa beach. I can't afford a house by the beach right now but I hope that I've made you happy today. I love you baby. I love you more than you'll ever know. Happy Valentines Day!With lots of love, Jake What if hindi ko nakita ang letter na to? I could have committed the greatest mistake of my life, letting go of someone who loves me the way this man does. I will never forgive myself for thinking that he was unfair, that he doesn't care, that he doesn't love me. I couldn't help myself but cry. All the while, I was the one being unfair and selfish and I feel so stupid for failing to see what this man is doing for me. Valentines na pala next week. I havent got anything for him yet...ahh alam ko na, from now on, hindi na ako mangungulit. I can wake up tomorrow and pretend that nothing happened tonight. I placed his letter back under his pillow and I tore mine into pieces. Tapos, niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit. I love you, b. I whispered. He wrapped his arms around me at ginulo ang buhok ko (gulat ako) I love you more he told me. And he laughed. He was watching me all the time?! O, tapos naba ang drama mo? Kanina pa kita hinihintay. And he turned off the lights. Kaya makontento ka, okay? You're in love with a human being and not with superman!!! Love is not a bed of roses and love is not a bed of nails. It is a combination of sadness and happiness


source:
http://blog.360.yahoo.com/blog-5yjSUMYweqo1xpe.s1z6li1MSqe0

March 1 na!

march9-bertday ni nanay

hapi bertday sa aking mudra...magkikita na tayo sa sabado..galingan mo sa oral defense...keri!

nationwide hell week!

small-scale hell week: (with focus on jobelle's academic load[s])
pa131 quiz about current events on thursday
pe1 2nd exam on thursday
pa141 weeklong take home final exam
econ11 3rd exam tomorrow
english10 library source chart tomorrow
geog1 homework
geog1 reaction paper
acctg1 postponed 2nd exam

to do(s):
read on current events regarding fiscal and monetary factors (san ako hahanap?)
complete pe1 lessons by searching online (sana nagsipag ako mag-take ng notes noon)
edsa books and readings (tanggala mga ganid na nanguna sa pag-ubos ng library resources)
more researches about policy, policy system, policy chorva, chenes, wesnes (ncpag lib!maawa)
stakeholder analysis about reformed EVAT law (pano ba ang stakeholder analysis?)
policy measures proposals about growing population (tanggala)
a tickling joke for ma'am mendoza (asan ang sense of humor ko?)
review for econ11 (makapag-review pa kaya?)
finish before 2.30 eng10 lib source chart (2:10 na e, 50% pa lang ata natapos ko)
done with geog 1 homework (buti tapos na)
done with geog 1 paper (yihee!)
study for the dreadful acctg1 =<
spend time on layb
huwag matulog
sacrifice my social life
budget my time
accomplish this for one week!

medium-scale hell week:

yung hindi small-scale at hindi large scale


large-scale hell week:
STATE OF NATIONAL EMERGENCY
'TIL WHEN?!